okay holy shit it's been like two weeks since i last post so okay I'll try to cook something up.

well anyways, been thinking hard and long, after consulting my cousin, I've decided to take up saf ite scholarship and serve minimum 5 years in the army as a combat specialist. i guess its what i want and i wunt mind doing physical training, exercise, outfield, range so on and so forth on the count that I'm a very active outgoing physical kind of person. but what makes me hesitate is that, im just afraid that my future wife or girlfriend won't approve of my army career and will leave me cause of that. but then again i guess if she,meaning my future wife or girlfriend, loves me, then i guess they should understand that this is what i want to do.

so yeah this next set is for my future girlfriend or wife yeah and close friends included. haha macam advertisement...

two more years
and I'll be gone

don't worry, I won't disappear
I'll stay with you till dawn

but the question is,
would you stand by me through the end?

anyways, next weeks physical training program is 2.6km run from my house to woodlands gym and go for an hour's workout and run back home. all these will be done with my cousin who's an ex SAF trooper. crazy much? probably but hell at least it takes my mind of stuffs.

friday!

true

"life aint meant to be easy

but

does it have to be this fucking hard?"

- some fucking great philosopher

hope

Keeping it a secret,

is torturing.

Can you interpret?

I'm still enduring.

once in a life time

you're right.

shit happens as always.

i know, i didnt even try.

that's 'cause there's no other way.

now

it doesnt have to mean anything.

now

you wunt ever know.

so what happen's next?

"you just linger around and never leave, don't you?"

" These things happen and they were glorious

but

in the end, we fucked up the end game."

2009 year end result

yes yes it's been a damn long time since i last blog. Okay since today is the last day of 2009, I shall list down all the ups and down in my life in point form. From there, we'll compare which one is higher, the number of ups or the number of downs. If the number of ups is higher than the number of downs, it means i passed my life in 2009 and didnt waste my time.

bear in mind that all of this events are based on what i can immediately recall from january to the end of the year.

so lets kick it off with the downside

à la baisse

1. failed relationship
2. lost Charlie to somebody else
3. depression period
4. grandmother admitted to hospital
5. messed my common test 1
6. wasted my saturday just to cover for somebody
7. lost my position to somebody else
8. conflicts within
9. got messed for not bringing chem stuffs
10. found out that i was the only one who didnt receive the award for outstanding cca contribution thingy
11. had to turn someone down for dinner (felt real bad about it)
12. parents wanted to throw away my cats
13. messed up mid-year exams
14. laptop crashed when I was doing my F&N O level coursework
15. shit happened
16. depression period
17. floorball comp was canceled
18. F&N practical was not really how i want it to turn out
19. depression period
20. malay o level was alrites
    
21. end of sch holidays
22. shit happened
23. depression period
24. MT o level oral was messed up
25. kena quarantined cause of suspected H1N1 hahahahaa
    
26. girlfriend is not helping at all( if you're reading this, yes i mean it)
27. official ORD from NCC ADSS
28. broke up with gf
29. messed up my prelims
30. depression period
31. depression period still
32. Maths o level paper was diff
33. geog o level paper was diff
34. english paper 2 was a lil wee bit diff
35. english paper 2 was definitely diff
36. depression period still
37. got a curfew
    
38. argued with parents
39. my bag's buckle broke
40. my running shoe got wet when i wanted to do PT together
41. my camera fell off my bag and died

so that's just about what i can reveal. so keep in mind it is 40 shits.
lets move on to my upside:D

à l'envers

1. won silver for blue house in floorball
2. got my nissin di866 flash
3. set up my own company
4. make a name for myself in the field of photography
5. increased my physical fitness
6. made some new friends

erm, wow, thats about it. nice... failed.

oh well

a year has passed
the last day is going gone

time passes by ever so fast
i'll still be up for you at dawn

but would you be coming for me?

ps: I've fallen for someone I liked earlier this year (: